Well after some 14 months of typing, re-typing, learning, re-learning and developing the skill of humility, my MS1 is (almost) complete.
I have, thankfully, had a wonderful lit agent in the USA, highly regarded and respected, help me many times and it is she who has asked for the final draft of the MS. We have emailed each other several times and each time she has been optimistic and helpful with critique and encouragement.
And now here is my dilemma. I have, over this past year or so received some 30+ rejections. Admittedly most of those were well deserved as my MS (and my writing) was not developed, perfected and sharp…………. But this particular person has encouraged, time and again.
So here I am, about to do the final re-read of MS1 and then it’s off to the post office and fate. I guess, to be honest, I have pinned a lot of hope on Ms. Agent. Aside from being the only reputable agent who has requested a full MS (others have requested partials but then rejected), I think I’m feeling insecure that after all this work and (emotional) pain, it will come to naught.
I fully understand this is the likely outcome, but a little piece of me held hope and until the envelope is sealed, that hope remains. However, I already feel it being replaced with anxiousness and well……….insecurity.
I have started my next writing project so I will not be just sitting around waiting for the ‘the call’ – but I’m finding it hard to let my baby go out into the world to be scrutinised and (potentially) rejected.
So guys, you of much more experience than I, how do you make the time pass without dwelling? And how long is long enough (to expect a reply)? And is it OK to send the MS and then send an email a week or so later to ask if the MS arrived or is this not the done thing?